The Gift of Forgiveness

30 May


Time has a way of healing even the deepest wounds. Forgiveness isn’t JUST about what you give others, it’s what you give yourself. It’s a gift. Forgiveness is the gateway to the experience and the lesson. Without absolute forgiveness, growth isn’t possible. Forgiveness of ourselves and others is essential to our evolution. As a person…and as human beings.

“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else—you are the one who gets burned.” – Budha

“Holding on to anger and resentment is like drinking poison and expecting someone else to die.” – Unknown

Re-sent-ment is simply “re-sent anger”. It is the mental and emotional act of resending toxic and negative energy through our own minds and bodies, repeatedly. It’s self-abuse. I forgot why, so long ago, I decided that forgiveness and forgetting were not optional but necessary. It was absolutely essential. I had forgotten, but I remember now. Negative emotions are cancerous. Ironically, I am a cancer astrologically. As with the animal in nature, when hurt or wounded or at the fear of a threat, we retreat into our shelIt’sour place of solace and protection. There have been times with in the past with my unforgiveness and hurt have left me feeling  weak and decrepit as if I were dying. During those times I’ve felt the degradation of everything that I’ve worked so hard for. That unforgiveness crept into old bruises and scars long since healed, and reopened them using my own hands.

I remember years ago after a break-up in which there were no answers, no explainations, no words..I told myself that sometimes closure is an internal process (be it a situation, a person, a death, or a relationship). Its a decision that you make with yourself that is exclusive of outside factors and people.

I was humbled by this lesson. I realized today that people are incapable of asking for forgiveness because they are incapable of forgiving. If a person can’t accept an apology, they surely can not offer one. This isn’t a judgement, much as it is an observation. As much an observation as people learn by what you DO not just what you say. You can’t expect to recieve what you are unwilling to give.

With that said, for any and everyone who may have wronged me, injured me, hurt me, betrayed me or devastated me, I forgive you. Regardless if you want it or derserve it. I forgive you. I forgive you because I refuse to be a prisoner held hostage by negative feelings and emotions. I refuse to be trapped in my own head; poisoning my own heart. I’m forgiving you for myself because inner tormoil is just not my thing.

I desire to give order to receive Agape.